Keine Lust - Ramstein

I don't feel like not hating me.
I don't feel like touching myself.
I'd like to masturbate.
I don't feel like trying it

Let's celebrate ... something...

Never Again - Death Desruction

Depression

Depression by Optiknerve-gr

Spring is a terrible season. I can't think of anything more depressing than all that bright light and the damned pollen. People cheerfully greet each other and talk about how great it is to get out into the sunlight. WTF? Don't they know that sunlight is a killer? Oh... wait ... I think I understand. It's a form of collective suicide... somehow. Seriously people, there are better and faster ways. Google it.

I think depression, to me, is a lack of dreams and a lack of tears. I can't feel anything. I'm not happy and I'm not sad. I should be in the middle of PMS hysteria and I'm not having even the slightest mood swing. And the dreams. I don't even have nightmares anymore. Picture that.

Fuck Yeah - Death Destruction

Darth Vader Kid

"May the Force be with you."

I haven't missed the commercials since I stopped watching TV, but the Darth Vader Kid is so cute that I'm happy that I was shown the way to it on YouTube.Reminds me of a dope head I saw once. He was absolutely amazed over his magical powers that could open the slide doors at the local mall. ... yeah, the doors that open as soon as you come near them, no magical powers needed.

I'm in imaginary love.

Sir Condrad Wright III

Sir Condrad is a Steampunk Vampire Elimination Specialist and can be found at League of S.T.E.A.M.

Right now I'm in naughty vampire mode and I dream of doing every so sinful things to this eliminator.

Only in America

Sluts. They really stand out in a crowd.

Four deaths in Four months.

Tree of Death - catfish08

I still can't believe it. I'm thinking it can't be possible yet I know that it is. It's true it has happened. Another relative has died. The fourth death this year is a reality. It's insane.

Is this how it will be? Is this what we will have to face each month this year? How on earth do you handle something like this without losing your mind?

I see the potential here...

Design by Eelko Moorer

 I'm liking this, a lot. Haven't been able to get the picture out of my mind since I first saw it. There are black ones too, but I prefer the wooden/grey since the bondage feeling is clearer then.

Three Deaths in Three Months

Death Dealer - Frank Frazetta

It's a bit hard to wrap my mind around it. Three deaths and subsequently three funerals in three months. Is it supposed to be this way? Growing old that is. Is this the future? People dying all the time? If so then I don't know if I want to be part of it.

My husband is hospitalized again. The loneliness is killing me. Well, not really killing me but it's driving me insane. Really. My paranoia is blooming and sprouting. In my sane moments I tell myself to get help, but how do you get help when everyone and everything scares you? I haven't bee out of the house since ... that's... lemme see now ... uhm... It's been a while. I'm covering the windows and locking the doors. There was a strange phone call the other day and now I'm not answering the phone either. I'm in massive pain, or at least I think I am. The pain keeps me awake at night and a zombie-like state during the days. Or perhaps the later is the painkiller's fault. I'm taking a lot of them now. Not that it makes any difference, I'm still in pain.
I'm not depressed though, not at all. I just wish I was dead. There is a difference, right? I dream of dying, when I manage to sleep, and I think I find at least 10 different ways to die during a night.