Going down...

I'm stuck in a down spiral and I've been trying to get out of it, but now I think it's time to simply give up, sink and hopefully drown. The stress and sorrow that has been my life during the last couple of months is breaking me and I don't know how to put myself together again. How can you live when life hurts so bad that you want to be permanently sedated. Needless to say, I'm back on the juice again and I'm not even trying to make any excuses for it.