The pain of living is driving me insane right now.

I can see my husband's health deteriorating day to day now. It's as if he's falling apart before my eyes and thee is nothing I can do about it other than make sure he takes his medications. The doctors have told us that all we can do is "wait and see" and I'm hating it. It would feel so much better if they lied about it and pretended to at least try to do something to help him. This is not what I signed up for when I got married. We're supposed to grow old together and live "freakily ever after".